Lost in Mind

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I am such a bad bad blogger. Or whatever you wanna call me. I don't know, don't feel like blogging at all. I'm in a vague mood. Not sure what I want at the moment. Some things also happened beyond my expectation both in positive and negative ways. I could hardly sleep well at night. Insomnia wins. I'm thinking too much, but nothing of them is really worth it. Not for you, but for me. Many excitements and also boring phase in between. I was thinking and imagining things too much, but I couldn't really thinking nicely and in proper way to make a good decision for almost everything. I'm sucks in making decisions. I sometimes need advices from my closest people in my life, while sometimes, I ignored their suggestions. Now I'm thinking what's the point of asking an advice while I don't even listen to them?-I mean, I listened to them, but I didn't do exactly as what they've said, even if I know it's a good advice!-

I'm in a distress, I guess. I don't know when I'll be back to my old-self again. Back to the real me. I guess, I'm just too tired with all of these. I almost giving up, but every time I want to quit, something or somehow someone came over and changed my mind-thanked for that-but vice versa. Sometimes, when I think I should give it one more try then something blocking my way and those someone-yeah, those. I've many "someone" in life-gone with the wind, so no one supporting me.

I need this to calm my mood :p But I don't want the calories! :p

I know God has plan for me, I think I shouldn't think too much, and get some rest, take care of myself and my health, try to sleep earlier, having some fun, do things that I like, enjoyed life while I still can fully enjoyed it, and do not regret things that happened, gratitude, pray more and we'll see if I'm getting any better in couple days ahead. I know I will, if I could do those things. :)

I'm out~

You have to walk carefully in the beginning of love; the running across fields into your lover's arms can only come later when you're sure they won't laugh if you trip. ---Jonathan Carroll, "Outside the Dog Museum".

Love is the only sane and satisfactory answer to the problem of human existence. ---Eric Fromm.